+*.strum life like you've never played it before.*+

to be is all i got to be

:[find the celebrity in you]:
Wednesday, November 08, 2006

natawa naman ako dito. un ibang results may lalake pa nga. hahaha. kasi you can get other results if you put in another photo. katulad ng mga 'to:

hahaha. eto pang isa!!!

mashado akong naaaliw dito. hahaha. hindi naman obvious di ba? napaka-joke joke naman kasi neto. hahaha. wala ngang bea alonzoe e?! hahaha. tas yun iba namang celebs, hindi ko nga kilala e. lol.

dali, kayo din...try it na!! punta kayo myheritage.com. la lang. just for laughs. :)

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 8:37 AM
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:[kings down to 5-3]:
Sunday, November 05, 2006

kelangan ko lang ilabas 'to.

it was a heartbreaking loss for me...because Jayjay was at the edge of having a breakout game after 2 not-so-good performances. ang ganda nung laro nila ni Mark!!! shemas. yun mga acrobatic shots nila, yun fastbreaks, steals...i took it as signs. tas un ultimate sign ko every game (secret na lang kung ano un. basta pag nakita ko un, lam ko mananalo Ginebra. it never fails me...well, not until now. *sigh*) lumabas din...tas natalo pa rin?! :)

umiyak ako. hahaha. ewan. timang ako e...ang sakit kasi, alam ko they had the good chance to win that game. but they blew it...siguro hindi lang talaga para samin yun game. e-menk had an off-night, their free throw shooting sucked and they were outrebounded by the chunkee giants. matatalo nga sila nung lagay na yun. plus they had a new player on the team. si tubid. eeek. nang dahil sa kanya, nagulo yun rotation ng players ni coach jong. Sunday and Mac had limited playing time...tsk. Aiii, Rudy Hatfield was sooo funny nung iniintroduce nya un starting five for the Kings. Tawa kami ng tawa. As in. Tas pagkatapos ng game, biglang ta-da. Lugmok ever. hahaha.

Pero ok na ako ngaun...accept lang ng accept. haha. Bilog ang mundo e. And lam ko mas masarap kung mananalo sila sa Friday against SMB. kamon.

At saka, this quote by Coach Siot made me smile despite of our loss tonight.

"In our team, we start with Eric, Mark and Jay-Jay." aaaw. Talagang andun na si Jayjay...:) galing galing!!!

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And I finally got to watch episodes 1 and 2 of Lost's latest season! yey. Nakakamiss sila. Ilang beses ko pinanood dito sa pc after downloading them. Waaah. Hindi pa ako makahanap nung mga susunod na episodes but I've read na yun transcripts. At may mamamatay na character!!! Spoiler alert! Hahaha.

Nalungkot ako na he had to die..pero sabi it has an important role on the plot of the series...weeeh. At saka, lalabas uli si Boone!!! si Boone!!! wiheee. Pero mabilis lang, ilang scenes lang...pero okay na rin! hahaha.

i lurrrrrrve LOST!!!

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enrollment na tomorrow. ibig sabihin nun, malapit na talaga ang start of classes. ayoko paaaa! hahaha.

bukas, i'll finally find out kung san ako una mapupunta...Nagcarlan o PGH?

weeh. pouters, pebs and the rest of batch '07, see ya all tomorrow! :)

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screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 10:22 PM
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:[happy halloween!!!]:
Wednesday, November 01, 2006

I've been away from the internet world for four days! waaah. My email was bouncing, and felt like I've been left out from what's hot and what's not already. Anyways, sembreak's okay. Not spending it the way I have dream it to be...but staying here at home would always be a cool way to spend my free time.
Newsflash: Ginebra na si Tubid! ayoko!!! waaah. Yes, his energy may be useful for my mighty team...but I honestly don't like his style of play. "very good backup to Mark" (to quote coach Allan)?! I don't know. gaaawwwd. I really don't have to like Tubid just because he's a King now ayt? Nah-ah. But you know what I'm scared of? That I might actually learn to like him...because my biased feeling for him might be overcome by my immense love for the team. geeez. dilemma, err? Hahaha.

I tell you who's got a dilemma. Hmm, si Jayjay. hahaha. He's not in his shape for the past two games. He scores way below his average...I can see the energy and the intensity but he just can't seem to play his usual game. Bakit kaya? Hahaha. Alam ko! Alam ko! *zips mouth* But it's okay, at least they've won their last two games...yey! And for everyone who's insisting that Ginebra should be invincible and remain undefeated...get real! You've got to realize that they're still adjusting...with the new players around, the new coaching staff and the new system. They must learn to jell with each other and be used to the changes in their roles in the team. Jong Uichico have said it over and over again, the players ought to learn how to sacrifice. And I agree with him. So do not blame the team! If you are a fan, it is expected that you understand them and not condemn them. Tsk tsk. And besides, they are winning and not on a slump...so do not go parade your english skills over the forums and yahoo groups and act like a basketball guru. amp. Act like a fan, a baranggay Ginebra fan.

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I was browsing my files and got to read my article for our STS project. Mine was Top ten quotes from Grey's Anatomy. Sineryoso ko pala talaga yun. Hehehe. Lalo na 'to o:

I know I'm not a world renowned surgeon and I know I'm not a lot of things you've gone for in the past. But I would never leave you, I would never hurt you, and I will never stop loving you.

I sincerely love these lines. Simple and straightforward yet very powerful.

Like you and me, every human strives for happiness, the most valuable element of human nature. And many find happiness in the form of love. We set standards of how and what our ideal guy should be. We create this idea of a "dream boy/girl". Yet a number of times, you’ll end up with someone with no common trait with your perfect guy. That's just one of the complicated things love can bring. And at the end, what will count is how that one person makes you feel special and loved. This love will cause lasting happiness that it brings along with the exclusive pain that secretly traumatizes some to the brink of suicide. Then you'll realize that the perfect person doesn’t really exist, only people perfect for each other.

Love is found on the battle field of two passion driven hearts. It defies anything that hinders its way. Yet its strength lies on its diversity. It possesses the unique ability to evolve, change and transform over the course of our lives. Sometimes, you don't have to be somebody to promise that you will stay with him forever and that no matter what, you'll love him unconditionally. Being in love is the state when two people finds that fragile state of being where their individual love demands no more than the other person can give and when they can provide the necessary forces to allow them to be fulfilled as well. Love cares nothing for equality but it insists on balance. That balance is possible only when both people are satisfied that their own expectations and needs in a relationship are being adequately provided for.

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nagsenti mode e? hahaha. Medyo napag-isip kasi ako...a friend of my Lola told Nanay na "Ang lungkot naman pala ng buhay ng anak mo..walang boyfriend. Kawawa naman." Napatawa ako ng malakas nung sinabi sakin ni Nanay 'to. Ako kawawa? Malungkot? Hahahaha. Hindi kayaaaaaaaaaa! Pero napaisip talaga ako, mukha ba akong malungkot kaya nya nasabi un? E sabi nga ng mga tao lately, blooming daw ako. Ewan. Pero sayang, hindi ko pa uli nakikita un kaibigan ni Lola na un...kelangan siyang maliwanagan. But then again, I don't owe her an explanation. If she thinks my life sucks just because I have zero lovelife, maybe she thinks teenager life is all about love, love and love. I don't blame her...Blame Erikson! hahaha. Well, I do have an inactive love life right now, but that doesn't mean I don't get kilig or receive sweet text messages. I do. Deadma lang talaga, kasi hindi ko type! Hahahaha.

Call this rationalization or defensive explanation, but you guys know me. I certainly don't look like a girl lost and unloved. *wink*

Weeh. Happy Halloween!!! awoooooo!

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 12:39 AM
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:[dreamboy]:
Monday, October 16, 2006

the past week was a blur.

it started off with me looking forward to a great week...since i can already smell the aroma of vacation, ginebra has 2 games that week, and it was jayjay's birthday week! but then, it happened. karen, a classmate and a friend, died. had mixed feelings about it...but i think, it all left us valuable lessons in life. and that whereever she is right now, i know that she's happy and fulfilled.

moving on. bago tayo pumunta sa bday ni jayjay, wihee. talo Ginebra kagabi!!! shemas!!! i sooooooo hate red bull!!! pigilan nyo ako, grabe. muntik nang masira un tv namin kagabi kasi dun ko binubuhos galit ko. haha. at kamusta naman, sabi ko pag natalo Ginebra kagabi, hindi ako mag-aaral para sa Econ exam today. ayun, talo nga. so walang aral-aral. good luck. hahahaha. di bale, babawi next time. ayoko nang alalahanin pa ang kayabangan at kahalimawan ng red bull. grrr. stop me.

oh well. ayun nga, twas jayjay's birthday last saturday. muntik nang hindi ako matuloy, kasi minove un time ng practice. anyway...ayun. hehe. speechless. basta, seeing jayjay on his birthday, it was heaven! tas to see him so so appreciate our gift to him...sobrang waaaah. kitang kita ko un pagttwinkle ng mga mata nya, while he flashes his super killer smile at wow siya ng wow. imagine, 30 years old na siya!!! susme. the first time i saw him on tv, he was just 24 then. hindi pa nga ako makapaniwala na he was older than mark. goosebumps. ang tagal na namin. hahaha. nah. iba lang yun feeling.

while watching them practice, super nagflashback sakin ang lahat. as in lahat. simula nung una kong makita si jayjay nung 2000 (that was the time na sinasabi ko sa lahat na "ayoko na sa ginebra" but my eyes were lying and my heart was opposing), tas siya na lang lagi ang bukang bibig ko pero sinasabi ko sa lahat na hindi ko sya crush, hanggang sa oo nga, crush ko na siya, ay hindi lang crush, mahal ko siya (hahahahaha. potek.), tas tuwing manonood ng games ng live e si jayjay lang un tinitigan, un mga moments at interview kay jayjay dati, un phase na everything about my life e inaassociate ko kay jayjay at iniiyak-iyakan ko pa ang katotohanang may asawa't anak na siya...ang biglaan nyang pag-alis na totally nagpadurog sa aking puso (nyork. nyork), tas may ibang pumasok sa buhay ko...at nang bigla na naman nyang pagbabalik, tas narealize ko na never na tlgang mawawala sa buhay ko etong si jayjay...ang hindi nya mapigilang pagsikat hanggang sa ngayon na. ayan na, siya na nga si mr. fast at pag nagtanong ka kung sino mga favorite players sa Ginebra, common answer na 'tong si jayjay...

wala lang. senti mode. nyaha. to think na un pagka-head over heels ko kay jayjay ngayon e mild na. isipin nyo na lang kung paano pa noon. kasi ngayon, yun tipong tanggap ko na lahat. mahirap i-explain e. bastaaaaa.

hay. un nga lang itong si jayjay, pasaway. binato ba naman ng bola si mark sa ulo ng after ng practice. buti, tahimik lang si mark nun. ampness. pero na-touch ako kay mark, siya pa talaga tumawag samin para magpapic sa kanya. hahahaha. e kasi hindi pa siya umaalis nun, parang may inaantay, yun pala kami. kung magpapapic din ba daw kami. hahaha.

grabe. kahit sobrang ikli lang ng oras na magkasama kami ni jayjay noon (magkasama tlga! close kayo? hahaha), high na high pa rin ako. suuuppppeeeeerrrr. syempre, hindi ko naman nakalimutan na pansinin un ibang Ginebra players dun noh. tlga lang, special attention kay jayjay kasi nga bday nya.

minsan, it still makes me wonder how and why I have come to lurve (as in love) jayjay this much. Super plus points na ginebra siya, kasi kung hindi naman tlga siya naglalaro for ginebra, i would have doubts on taking another look at him. Tas it helps na he shows loyalty to the team and love to his fans. He is still the same Jayjay...handsome, very very humble, shy (kunwari), and nice. un nga lang, mas sikat, mas magaling na player at mas mabuting tao. Hay.

this could go on and on forever. He really is my ultimate dreamboy. good luck na lang sakin..makahanap kaya ako ng isang katulad nya? Alam ko mahirap. Coz there's no one like Lamberto Romero Vicente, Jr. sheesh. kaya nga ba hindi na ako naghahanap ng isang katulad ni Jayjay...yun isa na lang na makakaintindi at makakasakay sa kalokahan at kawindangan ko. Isang taong mahirap ding hanapin. dahil forever, as in forever na siyang may kahati sa puso ko. Iba naman kasi talaga yun kay Jayjay, at iba yung sa totoong buhay. Mr. Fast is my fairy tale...but "the one" for me is my happy ending. masalimuot. gaaawd.

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 7:58 AM
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:[the pride is back]:
Tuesday, October 03, 2006

that was the tagline for the opening of the 32nd season of the PBA last Sunday. and yes, 2 days after...i'm still high. i am trying hard not to let anything (papers, profs, exams, etc.) destroy my mood.

up to the last minute last Sunday, i was torn. to go or not to go? the aftermath of bagyong Milenyo was still very visible...but that wasn't just the reason. something bad and too painful happened the day before. Going into a festive event doesn't feel right...basta.

eniwi, haywi. hahaha. so ayun nga, despite of evrything, pinayagan pa rin akong tumuloy...kahit na medyo feeling ko that time, hindi tlga tama. but boy, i am so glad that i still went there and watched it!!! sobrang it washed away the pain...hahaha.

just seeing jayjay there..sobrang waaah. tas to watch the team parade and boast off how they've gone much stronger and better off-season..geez. nakakapangilabot. ang sayaaaaa talaga nung araw na yun. in fairness din kasi, ang ganda nung opening ceremonies, aside from Mon David's singing of national anthem's boo-boo, ang soshal!!! APO lang naman ang host...tas andun din ang kamikazee!!! kamon. at eto pa, kumanta si renren!!! si renren!!! weeeh. lip sync lang actually, pero ang kulet pa rin! hahaha. at ang purefoods, lumelevel din. 26K (Kapamilya, Deal or No Deal?) ba naman ang gawing mga muse? Pero ok na rin, at least maipagyayabang ko na kay Mike na nakita ko na si Chloe at Missy in person. ^_^

susko. nakasaksi pa ako ng isang flirtatious event. kitang-kita ko kung paano hinila netong si K.G. (player from Air21) si JOSEPH YEO at pinakilala kay Tanya Garcia (andun siya kasi muse siya ng Air21). Nagexchange pa ata sila ng numbers. haha. i actually do not care pero a basta, eek. haha. eto pa isa nakakaasar, si Pauleen Luna yun muse ng Talk 'n Text. At etong si Wesley, inaasar ba naman si Renren ko kay Pauleen?!?! duhr. kasi nagka-issue na sila dati, pero ang totoo si Wes naman ata tlga ang nanliligaw. *bitter* In fairness to my kabit, hindi tlga siya lumapit kay Pauleen. haha. buti nga sa kanya. never ko talaga siyang nagustuhan. amp. pareho lang kaming, malaking bulas. hahahaha.

at syemps, ako lang naman ang nilapitan ni Renren noon. hahaha. dream on. *kilig* basta. nung lumapit pa ako, tipong ang sabi pa nya, "Ok lang ba kahit pawis-pawis na ako?" Waaaah. Owemji. Renren, kahit ano pang amoy mo, ok na ok lang. hahaha. at yun biruan namin...kamon!

*Paalis na si Renren, habang asa gilid lang ako nakamasid. Biglang bumalik."

Renren: "San nga ba kayo?" Friends: "Ginebra!" Ako: "Actually, talk 'n text ako, tara na.." Sabay tawa ng malakas. kaming 2 as in sabay napatawa. weeeeh. oops. tama na, masyado na akong malandi. weeeh. ang kabit ko!!! hahaha.

si jayjay naman. ayun. yummy pa rin. kumakaway kaway lang naman. haha. actually, tinawag namin siya at kumaway siya habang nagwawarm-up sila ng halftime. susme! gusto ko nang malaglag sa upuan nun! hahahaha. at ang soshal ng lolo mo! may taga-hawi na siya ngaun...as in bouncer, security. ganun! e si Mark Caguioa nga o si Eric Menk, never kong nakita na may ganun e...tas siya meron na?! Highest level na talaga 'tong si Jayjay. Namimiss ko tuloy nung mga panahong wala halos lumalapit sa kanya kundi kami ni Adona...hay. kamon. sikat na talaga 'tong asawa ko. hmmm. hahaha.

o di ba? hahaha. basta kalandian, kalokahan at kawindangan, nangunguna ako dyan. hay. *wink* pagpasenshahan nyo na ako kung ke-haba nito, lam nyo naman ako. haha.

ayan. feeling ko energized na ako para sa MedPaper, exams at kung ano-ano pang dapat gawin ko sa buhay ko. Wag lang uling may mangyayari na masama...ibigay na sakin lahat ng kamalasan, kakayanin ko..pero pag sinaktan pa pamilya ko, baka bumigay na ako. seryoso. minsan hindi lang mahalata, pero eto...ganito ang buhay ko. kaya pagbigyan nyo po ako kung minsan i sound too impatient or parang ang dali kong maasar sa mga bagay-bagay. sorry dear friends.

wihee. sabi nga ng pba, labang kung laban. kaya anuman dala ng buhay, tuloy pa rin ang laban. yebah!!! basta, hula ko...magchachampion ang ginebra!!! hahaha. *crosses fingers*

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 6:19 PM
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:[did you get?]:
Wednesday, September 27, 2006

*sings we got a little world of our own, i'll tell you things that no one else knows. i let you in where no-one else goes what am I doing without you...*

feeling down.

just when you thought that you might end this semester with good vibes, here comes another series of unfortunate events. (1) we still have to make-up duties on ER and Hemodialysis next week. (2) Econ. Econ. need say more? (3) Psych. where are our papers on primary level? darn. asan na? asan na? paano na?

*sings everybody's looking for that something. one thing that makes it all complete, you'll find it in the strangest places...places you never knew it could be*

akala ko tapos na, yun tipong pwedeng pwede na akong magliwaliw, tas ganito? hay naku. ginawa naman namin yun part namin ng maayos at mahusay, nagpass kami ng papers. pinaghirapan ko yun B.A. ko, gano ba kahirap na buklatin man lang at bigyan ng kahit na 1 hour each day yun papers namin dun? i am trying to understand her, lam ko na marami (as in marami) talaga siyang ginagawa...at sige papatawarin ko na ang hindi niya pagbuklat sa ilang gabi kong pinagpuyatang B.A. pero ang posibilidad na iwala ang primary papers namin? At baka paulitin pa kami sa paggawa nung mga un? nakesh.

i don't want to be pessimistic about these whole thing. pero ilang buwan na rin akong nasstress. at may ilang pagkakataon na na dinidikitan kami ng kamalasan. gustong gusto ko ng matapos ang sem, para naman makapagpahinga ako. yun tipong gigising ako kinabukasan na walang inaalalang duty, exam o papers.

*sings I have a dream, a song to sing to help me cope with anything...if you see the wonder of a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail...*

*sigh*

bukas, finally matutuloy na biopsy ni Tatay sa Veteran's. sana naman maganda yun maging resulta. please join me in my prayers, pakisingit si taytay sa mga panalangin nyo na sana negative yun results ng biopsy for cancer. kasi sa panahon ngayon, mahirap magkasakit. hay.

daming nangyayari, para tuloy hindi ko na ma-process yun mga bagay-bagay.

i am so looking forward to Sunday. that, that will keep me from developing a "maladaptive behavior." lol. promise, yun na lang event sa Linggo yun reward ko sa sarili ko, yun alam kong super mag-eenjoy ako. alam ko na sa loob ng 4-5 hours na asa Araneta ako, makakalimutan ko lahat ng problema at mga kadramahan ko sa buhay. On sunday, i'll be with a group of people so close to my heart. Sila na mula pa nung grade 4 ako hanggang ngayon ay patuloy na nagbibigay sakin ng inspirasyon at lakas. Never say die, pare. wiheee. I heart them!!! ^_^ Jayjay, here I come. :)

*sings just a smile and the rain is gone, can hardly believe it (yeah)...there's an angel standing next to me, reaching for my heart*

aii, it's final. There'll be a retake of the June 2006 Nursing Boards. at least, may progress. but the journey doesn't end here. d b? hehe.

hmmm. ano pa ba? aiii may chika ako! hehe. si champoy at si anne curtis. hmm, i think they're dating. at saka, sabi daw ni Kris Aquino sa the buzz nung sunday, she saw the two of them at Baclaran church at 1 o'clock in the morning. hmmm, wonder what they were doing there? well, if they really are an item, oki lang sakin. basta, kung san masaya si champ, dun ako. naks. hahahaha.

*sings how am I supposed to leave you now when you're looking like that. i can't believe what I just gave away now I can't take it back...i don't wanna get lost, i don't wanna live my life without you. how am I supposed to leave you now? when you're looking like that.*

buti pa si super Inggo, sa kabila ng mga pasakit sa buhay, ang ganda-ganda pa rin ng tingin nya sa buhay. Sa murang edad, punong-puno siya ng kainosentihan at walang tanging hinangad kundi ang kasyahan ng kanyang nanay na mukha daw anghel. Halos lahat pa ng tao, mare at pare nya. har har. at hindi siya nanggagaya ng isang sikat na sikat na US tv series na hindi naman alam ng mga audience kasi jologs sila. in short, orig ang super inggo. orig na orig. yebah.

anobeh. kung ano-ano na pumapasok sa isipan ko. kasi naman dapat naggagawa na ako ng MedPaper ngayon kaya lang (kel, read this!!!) NITATAMAD ako eh. hehehe. *wink* naisip ko nga, given the time that i had yesterday and today plus free day pa bukas, kayang-kaya kong tapusin yun paper na yun. kaya lang walang drive e...wala talaga. speciall after i learned about the psych thing. di bale, nakapaggawa na naman ako ng title page. hahaha. kamon! :)

*sings so I say it a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there...where the skies are blue, to see you once again...my love*

hay. itulog ko na lang kaya 'to noh? mabuti pa nga. =)

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anong common sa lahat ng mga singit-singit na kanta ko?

hahaha. si riza kasi, binuhay ang "pop culture: the highschool days way" ko, more specifically pa, westlife. hahaha.

wala lang. nang-aaliw lang ng sarili. \m/

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 10:14 AM
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:[buma-bob no more?!]:
Monday, September 11, 2006

*sigh*

so many developments in my life...yet there's no time and motivation for me to blog it. har har.

pero this one, i need to let out...i was happily browsing the net last saturday when i read this article. AMP!!!

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GMA’s Iwa Moto is ABS-CBN star’s biggest crush
CHECK IT OUT

by : Bong De Leon
Source: http://www.journal.com.ph/index.php?page=news&id=10919&sid=6&urldate=2006-08-28

CAN Piolo Pascual-lookalike Joem Bascon make it bigger than the original? When asked how he feels about the comparison, he said he is flattered but would be happier if he makes it on his own merits.

His break came through a TV guesting in ABS-CBN top-rating show, Maalaala Mo Kaya, hosted by Charo Santos- Concio starred in by no less than his favorite actress, Judy Ann Santos. This was followed by a regular show, “Let’s Go,” every Saturday. Soon he will join Piolo Pascual and Claudine Barretto in “Walang Kapalit.”

To hone his talent, Joem joined an acting workshop with Center for Communication Arts, Inc. At the same time, he doesn’t want to neglect his studies so he enrolled in Asia Institute for Distance Learning. With his good looks and built, Joem who stands at 5’9", is really a candidate for stardom. Incidentally, he turns 20 on August 29.

Guess who is his biggest crush in showbiz? Iwa Moto. He likes her being outspoken, her sexiness and her chinky eyes, just like his mom. Is he planning to woo her? In God’s time, he said.

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like EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! so is this goodbye to bob? abangan na lang natin mga susunod na kabanata.

'yoko na magsalita.

kasi naman, better stick it out with jayjay and renren na lang. hahaha.

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pero masaya na rin ako kasi i saw kabit yesterday. weeeh. kasama pa niya si coach allan! kamon! :) twas a very great treat for me.

plus we had a great celebration of grandparent's day. yipee. hehehe. :)

lastly, congrats sa UP Pep Squad for winning 2nd runner-up. hindi na ako magcocomment sa iba. hahaha. *zips mouth*

hay.

*sings napahid nang mga luha...damdamin at puso'y tigang, wala nang maibubuga. wala na'kong maramdaman...*

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"You're not going crazy, Jack. Crazy people don't think they're getting crazy. They think they're getting saner." -- John Locke, Lost

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 7:19 AM
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:[the bitter post]:
Monday, August 21, 2006

so they had an overnight, which i supposed they're going to talk about for days or a week. while i will listen sadly to their stories..and stare blankly at them on how they had fun that night. amp. i am dying to go to overnights since the last time i went to one was last summer? err, but that's different. and besides, it's the pouters so every night's different and fun.

well, it was nobody's fault that i wasn't able to join them. darn. if my mother had not fetch me from her seminar, i have been there too. ampness. *inggit*

nagtext sila, we were on alabang na ata. ang bilis kasi ng byahe namin...hay. we stopped by starbucks petron (or was that caltex? memory gap. lol) and there were two guys there, i supposed they are la sallians. they were talking about kabit (aka renren ritualo), on how he's too good when he's playing for the national team but couldn't gel with his teammates at Talk 'n Text. i really really want to butt in their conversation but baka naman ma-freal out sila. so i zipped my mouth and let them talk about my dear kabit. :)

then, have my first taste of mcshakers since its comeback! hooray. i was so giddy to have one, i almost cut in the line. har har.

anyway, tapos na. so i don't need to ran about it pa. :) as i've told them, i had my own overnight with jayjay. hahaha. dream on. kamon!

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btw, that night was spent with me watching High School Musical tas natulog na ako. yipee. i lurve HSM kaya lang masyado na nga na-ooverexposed (?) at ginagaya. wahaha. balita ko, abs-cbn will make one season of love spell (starring kim and gerald) ala HSM. tamo? hmp. nwei, i have to watch out for their special next saturday na ata un. they'll be teaching their dance moves. hahaha. as if namang gagayahin ko d b? hahahahaha

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argh. my wisdom tooth on the right side has just erupted. and it hurts so much. kahapon pang less than my regular meal un kinakain ko...weeeh. mamamayat ako nito. *wink*

papa-check up ko pa'to mamaya sa dentist. hehehe.

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the PBA annual draft happened last night. hindi ko naman kasi pinanood ng buo, so hindi ko alam kung andun ba ang Ginebra. fyi, they didn't draft any rookies tas they'll be leaving today for Brunei Cup so mas mabuti kung hindi sila umattend kahapon right? pero hnd ko alam, kasi nga hindi ko naman inabangan. hehehe.

kahit si kabit, hindi ko nakita dun. weeh. pero ang lago na ng buhok nya. the last time i saw him was on thursday, may news about the national team playing against the lebanese players. tas tas ang gwafuuuu ni kabit! waaaah.

october 1 pa start ng PBA. antagal. can't wait. natutuyot na ako. hahaha. i uber miss the guys. hay.

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congrats to my beloved HALE for winning an MTV Award for Best Pop Video. yipeee. :) sa pagkakaalam ko, yun pinanalunan nila judges ang pumili at hindi through texting. haha. may pinaparinggan?!?!

start na ng duty ko tomorrow. good luck to me. hahahaha. grabe, vacation mode na naman ako. :)

okies, i have to end this post na. got to catch teen choice awards on studio 23! ^_^

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 7:48 AM
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:[apparition]:
Friday, August 11, 2006

habang tumatawid ako kanina sa buendia, may nakita akong naka-black na muscle shirt na bako-bako ang mukha. (forgive me, if i am mean. ^_^) nakesh, sabi ko sa sarili ko. kilala ko yun a! at napakamalas ko naman na nakita ko siya...amp.

at dahil ayokong makita nya ako, kahit na lam ko namang hindi nya ako kilala kasi lagi lang ako nakayuko sa klase nya noon dahil sa sobrang ka-antukan, nagmadali ako ng pagtawid. tapos hindi ko namalayan na may paparating palang motor. buti na lang nagstop agad yun motor at walang nangyaring aksidente. buti na rin lang hindi nagalit yun mamang asa motor. buti na lang, hindi lumingon yun pinagtataguan ko. at lalong buti na lang na hindi ako nabangga.

sino yun nakita ko? BLAH BLAH BLAH. kilala nyo na kung sino yun. hahaha

ang malas ko noh? hindi ko inimagine na makikita ko pa siyang muli. asarness.

hay. buti na lang, good mood ako kasi sabado na bukas. yihee. marahil ay alam nyo na rin kung bakit ako masaya. hahaha.

at dahil nga asa fictional love pa rin ako (yes, and am proud of it. rock on! lol. hindi na ako mag-iintellectualize, baka ipsychoanalysis nyo pa ako. har har.) eto at andito ang mga pinagpapantasyahan ko. hahahaha

kamon!!! hahahaha. and while browsing for champoy's pics, nung nakita ko 'to, parang huwaw. shemas, ang gwapo nga pala niya. hahaha. ngayon ko na lang uli naramdaman un. wiheee. :)

ayun. wala lang. haha.

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"You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be -- white dress, prince charming who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming -- they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true." -- Meredith, Grey's Anatomy

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 11:15 PM
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:[best therapy for me]:
Thursday, August 03, 2006

when i'm feeling stressed out, just like now due to the long and strenous trips to my patient in Navotas (and i don't have a buddy to go with me), my mind, body and heart all look for the next big thing after God, family and friends. guess?

ano pa nga ba, e di Ginebra. haha. kamon!

kahapon, from Navotas, I went straight to SM Manila primarily because of impulsivity. haha. I know my Jayjay has a big picture there at GNC store and i badly need to see him. wala lang, motivation kumbaga. and there I was, going back and forth around GNC, smiling whenever I take a glimpse on Jayjay's picture. Buti yun mga saleslady dun, asa may bandang loob at hindi ako napapansin. Tas I sat down and ate sa Wendy's, just in front of GNC. adek talaga! adek!!! hahaha.

another reason why I dropped by SM Manila was to buy Ara, my patient, a gift. Wala lang, na-feel ko lang magbigay e. As a token for her cooperation and opening up her life to me. In fairness naman kasi talaga sa kanya, ang bait nya sakin. I know, it's a nurse-patient relationship but I feel like giving something para na rin sa termination ng relationship namin. After all, I've learned tons and tons about Psych because of her. I bought a card and a blouse for her. Yun card, asteg nga e kasi yun front cover nya says something like, "Get some sleep. Take your pills. Eat hot soup. Don't catch chills." Tas sa loob ng card, eto yun message: "Just relax. Don't get stressed. Hope that soon you'll feel your best." O di ba, appropriate na appropriate? Hehehe. Then yun blouse, green siya with Love and Be happy message sa front nito. ayun. While strolling at the mall and thinking what to buy for her, I wished that time na patient na rin lang ako at may student nurse ako na kasing-bait ko *ehem* para regaluhan din ako. Aba, I haven't shopped for myself for the last two months. Siguro yun mga nabili ko, school stuff lang. Well, may cds pero yun lang. amp.

Before leaving, I took one long last look at Jayjay's smiling pic. *sigh* I miss the guy. I uber miss the team. grabe na'to.

Tas I woke up kaninang mga 5am, para maagang simulan ang papers ko. Pero kamusta naman 8am na, wala pa akong sinisimulan? hahaha. I've spend the last three hours watching the recently uploaded videos of Ginebra games sa YouTube. waaah. hallelujah! as in heaven yun feeling!!! syemps, yun game vs. TnT pa paulit-ulit ko rin pinanood kasi andun si kabit. yahoooo! nakakapangilabot mapanood uli yun games before. wiheee. nakakamiss.

antagal pa kasi ng opening ng next season e...makikita ko sila sa Draft on Aug.20 sa Market Market. wish ko lang, makakapunta talaga ako noh? Pero nagsabi na ako na sasama ako sa Ginebra friends ko...sana lang matuloy ako. ampness.

About the player trades and coaches trade (biruin mo, pati coaches biglang nag-shuffle?!?!), tatahimik muna ako. kelangan pag-isipan ng mabuti ang magiging reaction. haha. yun 7-player trade naman kasi iniinvestigate pa, tas yun coaches parang hindi pa rin sure. Pero eto muna masasabi ko...nawala na si Manny, Aries, K, at Ervin, ayoko nang may mawala pa okay? The persistent talks about Romel leaving the team bugs me. I love Romel, kaya it will break my heart to see him leave..:( At ayoko na maging assistant coach lang si Siot, nope! He doesn't deserve to step down and give up his coaching position to Uichico. No offense to the guy, but Siot has earned his spot on the Kings. In case the SMC corporation has an amnesia and forgot about it, Siot led the team to two-straight championships. kamon! and what the team has shown for the last thee conferences aren't a shame. They've been plagued by injuries, for God's sake. *sigh*

oh well, basta anuman ang mangyari, Ginebra pa rin ang hari sa aking puso.

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watch MMK this friday!!! Psych patient si Piolo. har har.

ilang araw na lang. matatapos na ang psych. weeeeh. coolness.

"They say we're lucky. We work hard to be very lucky." -- Coach Siot Tanquingcen

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 8:12 AM
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:[that's the way it is]:
Saturday, July 29, 2006

i need one big hug right now...

i arrived at Tanauan last night at around 9:30 in the evening. and that super duper traffic fed me up. plus the fact that i was seating on just the 1/4 part of a supposed-to-be three-person seat. it was the last available seat, and i sat on it since i was dying to go home. the sky was so dark and the rain was starting to pour hard...so there. the guy beside me was seating like he is a king. sobrang kampanteng-kampante kung umupo. parang duhr, you're so big and you know i'm not that sexy and you won't give me enough space to seat on?!?! i was sighing the whole 3 1/2 hour ride!!! i even told him *counts* 5 or 6 times to move a bit since i was about to fall off the seat.

tas punong-puno pa yun bus. as if the rain, the traffic and my insensitive seatmate weren't enough...you know how it is when there are people standing at the bus. sasandal sila doon sa seat mo or minsan, they'll accidentally hit you with their elbows...okay lang yun if you're sitting nicely in your P87-worth seat...pero pano kung kalahati na lang ng puwet mo yun nakaupo?!

grrrr. it was a good thing i had my hale cd with me to keep me from bursting...super traffic kasi talaga e...*sigh* and i told myself it was just one of those days that lady luck isn't on my side...

pagdating pa ng bahay, i saw my mother getting to leave na. she was about to go to Bistro na...wala pa pala yun pinsan ko, so dapat silang tumao dun. nagmano lang ako, and then she was gone. parang hello? wala man lang how was your trip? wala man lang yun usual na musta ang maganda kong anak? mababaw, i know. pero my spirits was so low that time...i was expecting for the usual conversations, etc...

kami lang dalawa ni Mike asa bahay noon. angel was still at Manila that time...feeling ko super empty nung bahay. hindi ko pa makausap si Mike and i wasn't in the mood to talk to him either...so i went to the cr and cried. ewan ko kung bakit. siguro sobrang nastress lang ako doon sa byahe ko...

after some ten minutes, tumawag nanay ko. what time daw kami aalis ni tatay kinabukasan. sabi ko mga 7am, para makarating kami sa patient ko sa Navotas ng 10. hahanapin pa namin yun bahay e..tas sabi niya maawa naman daw ako sa tatay ko. kasi uuwi sila around 2am na, tas aalis na kami. wala na daw tulog, etc...ganun. ako naman, parang okay. sige ako na lang pong mag-isa, hindi ko naman sila pinipilit na samahan ako. lalo akong nalungkot. ayun, natulog na lang ako.

the next day, 7:30 kumatok ako sa kwarto nila para magmano. i was all dressed up and ready to leave. tas sabi ni nanay intayin ko daw si tatay, mabilis lang daw liligo at hindi na kakain, wag daw akong umalis ng hindi kasama tatay ko. ako naman, parang gusto ko nang umalis kasi tanghali na at saka, ayoko na nga silang istorbohin kasi lam kong puyat pa sila...pero in the end, kasama ko rin tatay kong umalis.

dumating kami sa Navotas ng 11am, ang haba-haba nung byahe. on the way to Manila, natulog lang kami pareho ng tatay ko sa bus. hindi talaga kami nag-usap. we talked nung asa Lawton na, he was asking for the directions kung pano pumunta dun. yun lang.

we stayed kina Ara (my patient) up to mga quarter to 1 yun. nakakatawa, dun ko lang nalaman na nagkaproblema pala sa Bistro kabagi. kasi for the last two weeks, may nagcocomplain na sa Munisipyo na kesyo dahil nga daw sa Bistro, hindi sila makatulog. ganun kachorvahan. tas kagabi nga, may mga pumunta daw dun at naghahanap ng working permit tas nirerequest na wag daw munang buksan yun Bistro. kinwento kasi ng tatay ko dun sa asawa ng kapatid ni Ara.

habang nagkkwento tatay ko, sobrang dumb founded ako. parang eto ako, nagtatampururot kasi feeling ko "kulang ako sa atensyon" the night before, tas may problema pala. sarap batukan sarili ko nun...hay.

kung tutuusin pala, hindi ko dapat inabala ang tatay ko ngayong araw na'to kasi kelangan nilang asikasuhin yun gulo sa Bistro. pauwi, nagpakwento ako kay tatay nung mga nangyari...pero hindi pa rin kami ganong nag-usap. nakakapagod kasi talaga un byahe.

nakauwi kami ng Tanauan, 4pm na. syempre, asa bakery na nanay ko, nagtitinda. pero andun na si Angel sa bahay, natuwa nga ako kasi akala ko pwede ko nang kwentuhan si Angel dun sa mga paghihimutok ko. kaya lang bigla tumawag nanay ko at sinabi na papuntahin si Angel para tumao muna sa bakery kasi pupunta na siyang Bistro, may mga kakausaping tao. the busy busy life of our family. hay. tas kinausap niya ako. siguro mga 15 minutes din kaming nagkwentuhan, kung anong ginawa ko, ganun. kahit na obvious sa boses niya na nagmamadali siya kasi may gagawin pa siya, she stayed on the phone and listened to me. masaya na ako dun...

ngayon, hindi ko na lam kung ano na nangyayari. at eto, kami na namang dalawa ni Mike naiwan sa bahay...feeling ko lang nagpaka-brat na naman ako. ewan, ang arte ko noh? hehehe. pero iba kasi e, ewan. siguro kung hindi ako natraffic kagabi, hindi rin ako ganitong kaasiwa. ampness.

para kasing as a child, you expect a lot from your parents...na minsan, kahit you're totally aware na they have their own problems to face, nakakalimutan mo yun at ang gusto mo lang e mabigay nila yun gusto mo o yun hinihingi mo. i dunno, baka naman ako lang ang nagaganito. hahaha.

pero ok na rin, i saw bob na naman kanina sa let's go e. hahaha. hay. the effects of not having ginebra in my life lately. hahahaha. di bale, malapit na matapos ang psych. then critical nursing na! hehehe.

ke-weirdo ko talaga. epekto lang eto ng hormonal changes sa aking katawan, malapit na siguro akong magka-dalaw. lol.

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 7:30 PM
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:[flight of ideas]:
Monday, July 10, 2006

jayjay's new commercial

twas just a one or two second apperance, nevertheless it is enough to make me feel euphoric. A shirtless jayjay in a pool? wihee. samahan pa ng Eric Menk at Mark Caguioa. definitely a must-see commercial, that is, if you're a die-hard Ginebra fan like meeeee. hehe.

oficially, 2 na commercials ni jay! hooray! ^_^

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D.L. talk

gone were the days when I can download an episode of any series (well, mostly Lost, O.C. and Smallville) for at least 45 minutes. ever since our regular computer technician (haha.) updated this pc and did something else which I really don't understand, due to my mother's complain na "bumabagal na daw yun pc", a comment made based on my brother's rant. well, true enough medyo bumabagal na nga siya but I think the solution to that is delete some of my video files and free up some space. Pero may pinagawa pa ang aking ina. ewan. ampness. btw, my mother now includes chatting as one of her hobbies. interesting. tas kung pano nya ako sawayin dati na umaabot ako ng 2am kakachat?

anyways, ayun nga. the least time na nakaka-DL ako ay 2 hours ata. grrrr. the last one that i've downloaded yun The Shape of Things to Come episode ng O.C. ang tagal. siguro kelangan ko na rin kasi i-update ang Limewire namin. kasi ang tagal mag-awaiting sources e. hmpf. i don't have all the time in the world to do works of wonder in front of our pc. gawd, miss the days. kawawa naman ako. hahaha.

actually, yun videos lang naman yun super tagal idownload. pero yun audio files, normal pa rin. last wednesday, I downloaded the High School Musical soundtrack. weeeh. i love it! i love it! :) currently, looking for the Blend (yun Jam A Capella music blah blah) album to download. yihee. wish me luck. *nagtitipid kaya ayaw bumili na lang ng album. lol.*

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new crush

crush ko si Bob sa Let's Go! hehehe. *kilig* sabi ni Angel, kamukha daw ni Piolo. sabi naman ni Mike, ni Sam Milby daw. duhr. hindi kayaaaaaaaaaaa! hahaha. ang landi!

favorite ko na nga yun Let's Go e. haha. fave character ko si Mr. L (played by Smokey Manaloto)! joke joke joke! like ko si Alex, who's Cathy Gonzaga in real life. yep, yep kapatid siya ni Toni. and look what i've found:

the guy wearing green shirt e yung si Norman, tas yun naka-pink si Joem, aka Bob. hehehe. ayan na naman...nagsisimula na naman akesh. hahaha. buhay walang Ginebra, buhay walang Jayjay at buhay na minsan lang chuma-champ, nagkakaroon ng ibang crush. hmpf. after a month or so, ask me again kung crush ko pa rin yang lalakeng yan, baka nga I don't even bother to look at him na e. lol.

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missin' kabit.

wala lang, namimiss ko na si kabit ko. kaya grabe, kahapon nung nireplay game ng Ginebra vs TnT. Super elated ako! hahaha.

kabit = renren ritualo, for those na hindi nakakaalam. pasensya na delusional ako e, at least recognized ko yun. yun nga lang, i'm not ready for change. hahaha.

pero really, i mis the guy. geez. quiet lang ha! lol.

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psych duty

errr, next topic please. wag muna ngayon. wag muna. amp.

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Hale, Hale!

they won yesterday sa SOP Pasiklaband...Best Pop/Rock band ata yun. Mas gusto kong makuha yun Band of the Year kaya lang...*zips mouth* ayee, don't have the right to complain. have to admit hindi naman ako nagvote dun e..hehehe.

basta, still nothing tops winning at Awit Awards and MTV Pilipinas. yun yun e! hahaha.

i am not yet sure kung makakapunta ako dun sa Haler's fest. wiheee. i am taking back what i've said before. bahala na. nakakalugmok, i badly want to go to a gig. pero walang pagkakataon. *sigh*

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bakit hindi ko alam na may rendition pala si Elliot Yamin ng I don't wanna be (One Tree Hill soundtrack)? haha. hindi ko napanood yun episode na yun. crap.

hindi ba nagsasawa ang Channel 2 sa kakapalabas ng Pacquiao? Oo, kapamilya ako at masaya ako na nanalo si Pacquiao pero hindi ba sobra-sobra na? susme. siguro kasi paranoid lang ako.

bakit may mga balita na kukunin daw ng Ginebra si KG Canaleta kapalit ni Romel Adducul?!?! Hindi pwede. wtf. May nagsabi na si LA Tenorio daw, aba hello?! May Jayjay Helterbrand na kami, we don't need another playmaker. And I don't want KG, kung mawawala lang samin si Romel. No, no, no, no, no, no. hmpf. Sana wala nang mangyaring trade. *crosses fingers*

bakit nakakadrain kausapin ang mga baliw? Yun tipong nakaupo lang naman kayo pero after ng pag-uusap nyo e feeling mo paagod na pagod ka na. O baka naman ako lang yun? Kasi madaldal at manipulative talaga yun patient ko? weeh.

bakit ba ako tanong ng tanong ng bakit? Hindi naman kasi ako psych patient e, kaya ayos lang. wala rin naman sigurong nagbabasa nito na psych patient kaya okay lang ako magtanong ng bakit. di ba? di ba? bakit?

hahahaha.

*batok* ang lakas na ng topak ko. *bow*

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 3:01 AM
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:[it's all about self-awareness]:
Thursday, June 29, 2006

finally had the urge to post an entry. after such a loooooong time.

wiheee.

geez, Ginebra was eliminated (again) by the most ugly team in the world. *ehem* and life has never been the same...no games to look forward to, no jayjay to watch out for, no...no Ginebra. well, as if i am not used to it. but still, it really feels different...I did not weep like I did last confy. Maybe because I've accepted their fate, and utterly believed that what they had achieved is already something that I can truly be proud of. A feat that no other team can do. yebah! *wink* and besides, I was sick then plus the fact that I was about to face the Psych finals so I did not have the time to cry over their loss. Yes, it hurts but it didn't change my belief that they will always be the number one and mightiest team in this world. :D

so there...next conference will start on October pa. that's like 4 months away! weeeh. Jayjay had left the country last Sunday, and I didn't even had the chance to have a last look at him. He didn't show up at the Q'Final's game 5, which apparently turned out to be their last game for the season. amp. anyways, wherever he is right now (which I supposed is in the arms of his wife. gaaawd!) I sooooo hope that he'll be back soon. As in soon.

and now that they're gone (haha. gone talaga!), I am turning back to my other source of inspiration/ happiness/ giddiness/ obsession/ etc..., HALE! hahaha. nagpaka-jologs na ako last week. watched their gig at Rob Manila. basta, it was my most pathetic attempt to watch their show...I was uber desperate! What can I do? anyways, there's gonna be another Halers' fest this year! hooray! It'll be on the 23rd of July..weeh. starting to clear up my sched so I can make sure that I'll be there. I will be there. Champ, welcome me back! nyaha. ^_^

congrats nga pala, they bagged two awards at the Awit Awards (yikes. ang redundant. lol) wiheee. winning there was way toooooo cool than winning in the myx music awards. hahaha. bitter! ampness.

oh well, life has never been this toxic. Senior life, as always, is a grueling yet a very learning experience for me. Everything seems like your "last". Heck, today's my last June 29 as a UPCN student. wihee. So you really need to make the most out of it. hahay. enough of this senti mode.

the most valuable lessons that I've learned so far are way beyond the mental illnesses and the other psych stuff. During my first weeks as a senior, I've learned that you really need to be open in order to learn. and I have to thank Ma'am Villarta for instilling that to us. I don't have to go through the details of everything that happened, but let's just say that this all new experience for me is starting to become all time! yihee.

and syemps, self-awareness! hahaha. seriously, I've never reflected on myself the way I did for the last week. It was more of the fear of getting into the Ward 7 duty, but in the process, I've realized that it's all for the best of me. :)

think I now have a better grasp and control of myself. not that I'm bragging about it...but it feels so good. so when life gets tougher, and everything seems to be wrong, I know how I should cope. basta, the first thing to do? Think of the things that make me happy, and then say a little prayer. It should be enough to remind me that I'm doing all of these for God's grace. and that makes the difference...

i'll make kwento about our first days at Psych ward the next time! ciao!

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P.S. first time kong napanood yun episode ng Lost na "Dave" this week. funny how I've watched the season2 finale na tas yun pa un hindi ko napapanood, well that along with three other episodes na hindi ko ma-DL. anyways, it was sooo creepy and confusing yet one of the best episodes for me. I dunno why, but maybe because it's the mystery that it brings. For me, it was one of the big turning points of the season. weeeh. can't wait for season 3!!! antagal pa! nakesh. ^_^

hindi ko pa napapanood Grey's na Season 2. boo-hooo! di bale, I'll look for a free time then I have to borrow my friends' dvd. calling calling pink pouters! hahaha. :D

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"Oh don't you wash away that smile, just look at the window and see the light. It's beautiful to be alive, it's wonderful to live a life. The sun is sure to shine for you and me, for everyone. So don't be sad, it's just the start of a new beginning in your life...." -- Blue Sky by Hale

"When I look at you holding my heart, I will give to you all that I have. Son I know there'll be times, you will feel all alone. 'I will share with you the words,' my father said. You're never far... I will be where you are and when you come to me...you can bet I will open my arms." -- Welcome Home by Brian Littrell

aaw.

screaming, calling out your name,
daYc at 1:59 AM
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